The Discipline Of Fire And Demise...

For the past few days, i've been sick like a dog. Well, i suffered from serious cough and loads of phlegm. Disgusting shit. And shortly after that, bodyaches and headaches pound on me like there's no tomorrow. Total living hell...

Could say that i've recovered by this morning... And fuck. What could be more miserable? Now, i am showing signs of stomach flu. Its one of the worst sickness that i ever gotten. And yes, i hate that fucking thing. Argh... I hope its juz a false alarm. Cos its juz showing signs, and not a confirmed situation yet. So please... Spare me off.

Cos of the stomach pain, i couldn't get to spend time with her. Guilty. I feel so bad. I want to spend time with her so badly, but i juz couldn't. Fucking hell...

Whats worse? Sabrina Long (Our course HOD) knows about our relationship. Bumped into her when i was with my girl, and sabrina asked "Hey are you two pak-tohing?" (Dating). Man.... Oh well, wats done is done. Personally, i dun really like to keep our relationship a secret. I mean, there's nothing to hide or feel shy about it. And i guess, its juz another blessing in disguise?

Well, hope that this stomach of mine was juz cracking a joke on me and it'll recover by tomorrow. I don't wanna skip class or feel like fuck. I hate illnesses...

Felix's birthday celebration made me realised deeply that i'm turning 21 this year. Damn. Time flies... It made me think how i'm gonna celebrate it since its the age that one would turn into an adult. Sheesh... But yea, more or less, i'm having a chalet. My gramp's is gonna sponsor me! Hehe... All "bao ka liao"... Booking of two rooms side-by-side for chalet, bbq food blah blah blah...

And suay suay, i dunno why the hell i kena cough. Last night, i only drank and ate abit. Sheesh... Now coughing like dog. Shit man... I juz recovered from cough a few days back.. Now kena again. Damn...

Went to Inokii with her today, and got 3 tees for CNY. Hehe... To name, i bought the tees of bands like "Immortal", "Emperor" and "Destruction". I love em all. Nice design i would say.

Oh well, i seriously hope this cough will be gone soon. I hate coughs and flu. Damn. I'd rather get a fever man... I hate illnesses which will disrupt my sleep. Argh. Irritating to the max...

The day was overall neutralised by the incidents that happened at the end of the day.

In summary "What i do not want others to do unto me, is what i do not do unto others."

Thats all i can say.

I'm a liar, and i'm sorry.

Thats all.

It was maybe a hastened procedure...

Kill me.

Its already thursday, one more day before the first week of school ends. Man, it really passes by so quickly... Cracking my head about the site for ED studio. Argh... Hate it when these kinda things happen.

Other than that, the first week of school was alright i guess. The feeling of going to school with my girl was kinda... Sweet? Haha. Maybe cos i've never been in that kinda situation. But yea... I hope we can go to school together every wednesday. Hehe.

Yesterday was great, until this fucker spoiled it. Was with my girl alone, and this fucktard beggar came begging for 2 bucks. And yea, he's like, around sec 3? Keep on telling me about his mum getting into hospital and stuffs. Hey its not that i'm a cold hearted fucker, its juz that i dislike the way you talk, the way you look at people. No sense of sincerety. Kindly, i juz asked him to leave. But he never did. He still stood there, staring at me. Na bei... I could seriously take out my chain and whip the fuck outta him. He stood there, staring at me. I asked him "Hey wats your problem?" Guess wat he replied... "You punk ar?" Na beh... Of cos i said no. None of me looks like a punk. I told him to get going... After a min of staring at me again, he finally left. CB... If it wasn't for her presence, i might have really whacked the shit outta that fucker. Idiot. My logic towards a beggar "If he/she has all 4 limbs intact, why the fuck do you wanna beg? Go get a job and earn some cash mothafucker...". If you're seriously wheelchair-bound, i might still spare you the cash. Fuck. That bugger was even riding on a bicycle. A pretty well conditioned one to be exact. You expect me to believe him? Fuck no.

Ok enough about that begging bugger. She brought me to have dinner around her place. So yea... It was damn filling. Haha. Alright, and den walked her home... Sweet...

And as for today, fuck... For the first time, i'm late for like, 1 and a half hours! OMG! Jia lat sia. Haha... I guess i was too tired? But oh well... When i was in school, asri said that Edwin was disappointed in our exhibiting models. Shit man. I'd rather not get my model into the exhibition. feels like i'm doing "sai-gang" (Shit work in hokkien) for my model. Dun blame me if i didnt do it well. But seriously... Shit.

Another random thing that i would really wanna get off my chest. Seriously. I FUCKING hate those kinda people who's like... Ok picture this scenario. A girl, says that she's tired. So, i ask her to sleep, or take a rest. She dont wanna rest, ok so be it. And then, she keeps on whining there... (A made-up scenario) Ti di tiu ti di tiu ("keep on crying and crying... cry cry cry..." in hokkien). Den later gimme some kinda jiao logic... Wa cb... Si beh du lan ar! Juz STFU and get lost... I really hate these kinda people. Turns me off totally... ARGH!.

Started school today. Pretty excited, cos getting to meet my classmates and frens in school. Haha... Ok yea... Today was total slack la. Rhino class, attended for like 30 mins and Kent Neo juz let us off cos there's nothing to do. As for sculpture... YESSA! Gonna do metal welding again. This time round, its more of a 3D sculpture made up of metal plates. So yea...

Ended school, and did my work in com lab. Yea the technology sketches ar. Sian. But yea, almost finished. My rogue came to meet me there after she finished class, and accompanied her to NLB before i went home.

Had dinner at home, and went back to meet her at NLB. Headed to go jiwang-jiwang again. Pretty sweet. A good start for a new term, and a motivation for it too. Went to esplanade, and slacked there... Of cos, spent some really sweet time together there...



I kinda like this pic.... Sweet stuff.



Holding on to each other...

I juz realised something. That, she's my first girl whom i take so many pics with. Of course, there're other pics, but are kinda er... "Private moments". So yea. Hehe....

Love you loads honey... =)

Hell yea... Poisonblack rocks/metals my ass off. Especially the song "Rush"... WOOO!!!~

Yea school's starting tomorrow... Sucks.... -_-

But nvm... A 3months+ holiday is next... (Thanks TS for reminding me. HAHA)

Yeap brough her out with my buddies. I mean, i long wanted to do that, but yea... Today's the one i guess. Hehe.

Met her at bishan and made our way down to orchard. Supposed to go around looking for some ear accessories for me. Those, kinda cross danglings. In the end, walked and walked around taka. Haha. Juz some simple window shopping.

Later at 6, met the members at orchard MRT station. Went to far east, and had dinner at sakura there. Introduced my favourite food to her, Hokkien Yellow Mee. Hehe... Had a pretty good dinner i would say. Cos yea, was feeling hungry.

Met Ong at far east after our dinner, and went to HMV. The moment we stepped into there, a blast of metal welcomed us. Sweet... They were playing songs from this two band, named "Firewind" and "Poisonblack". Sweet... Damn nice la!!!

After that, went back to Compass Point to slack. And this time round, with my girl. And after that, went back to bishan. Took a stroll thru bishan park, and that very moment, she was mine. 'Twas that very moment, a dream come true... Hehe. Okok. And after that, she gave me this.... Cute lil' thing named Patrick... Here's a pic of it sitting infront of my com...



Here i am, after i spending a really good day out with my members and my rogue. Sweet... Love you loads babe...

Ok here's a pic that we took together yesterday... Hehe...



Ok... I admit, i really do miss her man. Yes i admit again, its kinda speedy. I mean, we progress real fast. And of course, i hope there's no flaws and stuffs... So far, she's juz so... Well... Such a honey-coated Rogue of mine... Oh man... So yea, went to meet her in school today, and at the same time accompany her while she does her work. Yea, she told me that she misses me too, so the more i should go down. Passing her my hard-disk is a lame reason to meet her, the real reason is, i really wanted to see her. So yea...

I called her upon reaching, and yea... She also juz reached. When she walked up to me, she passed me this bottle of tea... Its for my coughing throat... Oh my... You're so sweet honey. It really melts my heart. Sigh... And you wouldn't even mind sharing a drink with me despite knowing that i'm having a light cough. How i wish, i could juz give u a big tight hug. Hehe...

So yea, accompanied her till 6.30, and she went to meet her mum. While i, head down to seng kang to meet the members to play basketball. Woah i swear man... It kinda took alot out of me despite me playing quite little today. First of all, i forgot to bring my towel, which kinda sucked. Secondly, i skipped my dinner and yea... Was having a slight gastric pain while playing. These are the reasons why i played a lil' today. Nevertheless, and enjoyable one. Its been a month since i last played basketball... Due to the sick weather. Stupid rain... Go away... And yea... Rain rain, go away... It applies to that korean fuckhead. I juz can't stand the sight of him. Haha. Kill me if u wish when u read those of above. I don't care. HAHA!!!

Went to have mac's after playing basketball, and yea... Headed back home. And on the way home, she smsed me "Hey i'm happy. Cos i juz scolded Edwin (Her lousy ex guy)" I am happy and proud of you honey... If that edwin fucker can't get over her and still keeps on pestering her, it'll be a sure thing that i'll show him the power of metal. And yea... Here i am, typing out blog after a good bath.

I miss you babe... Hehe. Gonna bring you out with my buddies tomorrow. See ya babe... ^_^

First of all, i would wanna say... EASY RIDER ROCKS LIKE HELL!!! Yea its a band that i juz discovered yesterday. FUCKING GOOD SHIT! Purest of the pure heavy metal... How sweet is that baby?

Ok was a pretty a last minute plan to meet her, but heck... I juz went ahead with it. Hehe.

Met her at Compass Point. Its been ages since she went there. So yea... Accompanied her to walk around, looking at things. And yea, went to AMK next to taper my pants...

I've been thinking for a long time, and finally feel that i should really taper my pants. I personally don't like wearing loose fit stuffs, so yea... I even altered my t-shirts juz cos of that. Haha. Yea, went to AMK to send it for a taper service. Hope that i wont look like a mat. Even if i do... Fuck it. I like it that way. Haha. Of cos, she's sweet enough to accompany me there, and give me suggestions on the tapering. Finally decided, and paid the cost for tapering. Gonna go back on sunday to retrieve them back.

By right, she's supposed to go to her friend's place to do work. In the end, we ended up chilling and chatting at a near by coffeeshop while waiting for her friend to arrive. Her friend came at around... 45 mins later. They wanted to have dinner out and she wanted me to tag along. Of cos, i agreed cos i don't feel like eating at home either. Haha. And the other reason is... I juz wanted to spend more time with her...

Met another of her friend at kovan mrt and started walking to the designated eating place. Initially, i didnt really have a good impression of her friend in school. But as time goes by, i juz feel that she's a nice person. I guess i should really learn not to judge a person on the surface. So yea, i guess i have another two friends in school.

The punggol 21 nasi lemak stall wasn't open, so i juz introduced them a pretty good eating place. Sweet, tried new stuffs, and love it. And hell yea... Her friends were making fun of us... Scenario... She didnt feel like drinking much, so yea... I juz ordered a cup of chrysenthemum (dunn how to spell la) tea, for the both of us to share. At the same time, i told the auntie "Could you please put two straws into the cup? Thanks..." Her friend immediately went "Eh need two straws meh... No nid la... Share one will do" And both her friends went giggling away. Kau jangan kacau ar... Malu sia... Haha. Finished eating, went back to heartland mall to jalan jalan and slack. Finally, i agreed to take a pic with her. Could tell that she's really happy when i agreed finally. Haha. Cos she really smiled even before we took a pic. Sweet...

It was around 9+ when she's going off to her friend's place. So yea... We had our day done. As usual, the both of us felt it wasn't enough. Haha. And i kept bringing up that "joke" about wednesdays...

When i reached home, i started missing her already. Like, sheesh... And yea, we chat on phone after i was done bathing... I miss you, i admit. Hearing your voice was good enough. Hehe. I think i'm going gaa-gaa over you honey... let that be a good sign... =)

Whenever you take off your specs, your eyes are juz... So bewitching. Your eyes are juz so... Beautiful......

Labels: High as the sky

A picture portrays a thousand words :



Went to school area to wait for her to be done with her stuffs. So yea... The day started when i saw her in my first sight. Hehe.

Went to check out movies, and we came across Apocalypto... Yea i was kinda interested in watching that as well, so we bought tickets for a slot at 4.10pm. During that time, it was still pretty early, at around 1+. So we juz headed to far east to jalan jalan...

Wanted to go to Inokii, but dunno why the shop's closed. Sedih sia... Haha. Nevermind. So we juz continue walking around, and came across this shop which sells Ipod Nano. And it came to my mind that i might wanna get one, so i juz enquired about the price. She suggested that we go to the ipod place at wheelock's place, and she brought me there. Man i hardly go to that place, so i didnt know ma... Sheesh...

Went there, and i saw the price...
Ipod Nano 4GB : $348.
Ipod Video 30GB : $428.

Na beh! Might as well get the ipod video right?! But i dunno why the price is like this. There must be some flaws in Ipod video.... Must go check it out further.

Went to borders after that, and checked out the CD section for some metal stuffs. And happened, that i came across this band called "Easy Rider". Somehow, it juz got my attraction. I tried the CD, and fuck... Its a must get!!!

Ok and its time to head back to cathay to watch our show. Overall rating for the show, 7 out of 10. Pretty interesting i would say. The 3 points, were lost cos of the short story line. No i meant, the intro was kinda draggy, the mid part was interesting but pretty short, and the ending was expected. Overall, a good show. Haha...

Had dinner at pasta mania after that, and sweet... Somehow or rather, we always have the alikeness in things... Now, when it comes to ordering food, EXACTLY THE SAME TOO! Oh my... Haha nevermind about it. Ate until damn full la... Long time never eat pasta mania already. Wats more, my fav Creamy Chicken. Sedap gila!!!

Went to bishan park again, to chill... Yea... Ok i wont say wat we talked about, but in summary, some personal feelings on how we feel about each other. Yes, we both also agreed to get to know each other much more even before moving on...

Girl, you're such a sweetheart... Seriously... I'm really lost for words...

Stayed home yesterday till around 10+ (if i'm not wrong), and met her at bishan mrt after that. Went to her neighbourhood to chill... Its been a long time since i last went there. Yea, i used to chill there with my other frens last time... And coincidentally, she stays there. Hehe... Got bored of it, and she brought me to bishan park.

'Twas the first time i've been to Bishan park. In addition to that, it was around midnight some more. Walked the whole of bishan park 2... Sat down during some intervals to relax and chill... Really talked alot. Hehe. Well, i really wanna get to know her better first.. And she feels the same way too. Walked around there, till 4+ and yea... Sent her off to her lift...

"You're juz so... Beautiful..." was wats in my mind for the whole time. You really reminded me of the song "I live my life for you" and "Untukmu Sayang"... The description of "Untukmu Sayang" was somewhat there... Sweet...

Today, practically stayed at home the whole day. Alif came to my area at around 5+... Slacked at my neighbourhood... And he went off at around 7+ or 8...

Suddenly felt like talking to her, on phone i mean. Juz nice, she asked if we could chat on fone. Sweet... Somehow, our perceptions are alike... Things that we like/dislike... Juz so alike.... So yea... Called her at 11.30...

Ok now gonna go sleep before i start my day for tomorrow. For it shall be an interesting one... I feel, that i'm sorta dating you out. Hope u don't mind if i put it in that term. And yea... See ya tomorrow girl... =)

Ok the title might not suit this entry, but yea... Hehe... Haven't been updating my blog for the past... Two days i think. Haha. I'll juz start from saturday...

Saturday :

The members gathered at my place (For the first time). Eugene came over to play NFSC, but couldn't. Haha and for that, sorry man.. Damn pai seh. HAHA!. In the end, we competed in NFSC two player mode. Haha... No sweat man. Eugene, though u can drive the tarner (issit spelled this way?), it doesn't mean u can drive racing cars. Out of 5 matches, i won thrice. HAHA!!! Damn funny la... Tried all sorts of stunts on me, and still lose. Haha... Funny sia.

Aaron came slightly later, and we juz went to my room to play guitar, use com and surf net. Eugene suddenly thought of recording the "Ah Nan Char Kway Teow" thing... And so we did. Haha... Funny shit. So yea... Was waiting for Alif to arrive, and yea... Headed out after that. 'Tis always fun travelling together... Members for life!

Headed to city link, and yea... In summary, both Aaron and Eugene bought stuffs... Went to eat at Sakura, and yea... Another joke came about. Alif happily ordered black pepper beef (if i remembered correctly), which falls under the "Main Dish". When the food was served, we were all kinda puzzled... He asked us... "Hey, do they include the rice?". We looked at each other and started laughing... COCK SIA!!! ITS MAIN DISH MY FREN!!! And yea, luckily dennis came, and they both shared the dish with rice. Joker...

The day ended after we headed to Compass Point to slack...

On the way back... Something happened. And yea... I wanted to meet her. Decided, and met her at J8 since its near our house.

Reached there at around 12.30. Saw m'lady sitting there. My heart was beating real fast, but yea... I juz approached her. After a few mins of chatting, we took bus from somewhere near her place to town.

Reached tangs, and we juz started walking without any aim in mind. Walked halfway, we decided to go to Esplanade. It juz happened to be one of our fav chilling place. Basically, we walked around, sat around and chatted away till 6.50am for our first bus back home. Accompanied her to her place, and juz took cab home. Came home, bathe, had breakfast before i K.O.

Sunday (Today) :

Slept from 8.30am to 2.45pm, and juz ate my lunch. Went to continue my game of NFSU2. Sweet... Unlocked Mazda RX7, and zheng abit of my Toyota Supra.

Yan Ling asked to meet up to have dinner out, i went. Wa... Really have to thank her for introducing me so many nice food around. Haha. Yea she's one of my kakis in NAFA. Slacked till 9, and went home. And yea, continued playing NFSU2.

At 12am, she asked to accompany her lim kopi cos she's bored. So again, headed out. Too bad, m'lady couldn't join us. Or it'll be so sweet to see her again. Hehe.

And yea... Here i am, back into my room after that.

Part 1.

Was slacking with the members, when they gave me a new nickname... Which is, pretty kool i think. "Mr 7.5" was wat they called me. Haha. Sounds pretty kool... And under gene's block, we saw alif trying to adjust his bike. Yes we noticed that he "Zheng" his bike abit ar. Den eugene was saying "Zheng his bike..." And i dunno why, suddenly the term "Pimp my ride" came into my mind. Wa ryhmes sia...

Part 2.

Sedih sikit ar... Asked myself "What the hell am i thinking? Tak boleh gini ar. Dia ada mata ayer..." But i guess i'm alright. I guess its not necessary to have it all even though i have a liking... At least i know what's good for us all.

"Just forget about it. Just be happy..." is what i can say to myself. If my chance will ever come, i'll wait. These words i say to you "Hatiku, untukmu..." My malay ain't that good, but at least i know what i'm saying.

I meant no sarcasm when i supported or aided you, but only for the best for you. =)

Its easy to "capture" my heart. It all comes down to the rogue. If she wants to hold on to it, it shall be hers. Its ok, i guess... Just live to be happy, is my aim in life. I don't want a grievous life. I dont wanna live in agony and pain anymore. I wanna make myself and the people around me happy. Thats all...

I think its too early to say that i have feelings for you, cos its nonsensical. I know nuts about you. But what i'm feeling right now, is admiration. Ya know, like SA (go figure out....). So yea... I'll juz stop things on my side, for i know that its totally... Er... Nonsensical? Yea. Nira would've agreed if i said "I fall in love easily".

Oh well... I juz hope the best for you. And without doubt, i'll wait... =)

Ok going off to play NFS Carbon. Off i go...

Assessments are juz over, and i'm enjoying full time on my NFSU2. Haha... Celica is no longer the silly car. Its some supreme car! Went to really "zheng" much further, and foof... Hi-speed action baby!!!

Hm had some seminar about materials since wednesday. Interesting stuff. 'Twas better than i expected, at least not some "waste-my-time" seminar... Haha. Really kool stuff. Getting further exposed to common materials for art-and-craft, and using it in other ways. Yea interesting...

Wa damn tired though. Starts from 9am all the way till 5pm. Of cos, there are breaks inbetween. But these two days, i've been sleeping in the bus on the way home. That tired man... But yea.... Tomorrow's gonna be the final day for the seminar... And after that, one week break! WOO HOO!!!

Yea... Its over... Phew. Like, finally... Damn tired... Haha...

Fuck man... got a pretty low grade... "C+". FUCK! Worked so hard on my models... But sigh, can't blame ar. Kinda expected it anyways. Cos i did a last minute presentation board which looks like krap. Total krap... Haha. Oh well... So long as i pass... (But of course, i aimed higher... like, at least a B)...

Ok off to my NFS now... See ya!

Dreamt about her two nights ago... One of the sweetest dreams in my life... One of the dreams that can make me go "aWwwWwwWwwwwww". Haha...

Haven't been blogging/blog hopping these few days. Busy with assessments for this term. Haha... Serious man... Everyday sleep for like, 3 or 4 hours for the past few days. Killer...

Assessment's tomorrow, and yea... These pics are the process of my model... hehe...

Stage 1:




The exterior of it... Looks like krap then... Haha...

Stage 2 :


The stairs being added... And the side of the walls covered...

Stage 3 :






The pot plants being done and added, the height of the overall model added, with the shell-like shelter. And of cos, abit of the trellis... (Almost there, almost there!!!)

Stage 4:


Making the trellis alone is a killer... Here, its added.

Final Stage :


The overlapping shelter being done... Sweet... That's my main design. Haha...

Overall View...




Sweet ain't it? Worth the amount of time spent... Man... Nice... hehe....

Oh not only models did i spend time on... I spent time too, on my dream car... Toyota Celica...

From this....


To this....


Sweet stuff again. HAHA!!!!!!!!!!

Well, thats all for today's blog... I'm tired... Gonna go have enough rest before presentation tomorrow...

(Where art thou m'lady? I miss thee so....)

First off, would wanna start by saying this... My tonsilitis pain are gone!!! HAHA!!! Bye bye tonsilitis bye bye... And that was all i wrote! Hehe...

Wa buay tahan... Today went to school, and joke of the year came out... Wu jie was asking Asri to help her return a book from NLB by slotting it into the bookdrop outside NLB on his way home... Wu Jie said "No no.... You can drop it anywhere..." Den i turned around and said "Eh asri, since u can drop anywhere, later u juz go drop it at the traffic light ar...". Asri started laughing his ass off, so did i. Things got so bad that i started banging my forehead on the table. HAHA... Cannot tahan sia... And asri kept on saying "Good one... (referring to that joke)" And he kept on laughing like mad... haha...

Started my day in school at 11am, and went off at 10pm. Went out to wait for my gramps to come pick me up due to the heavy rain. Suddenly, SHE approached me and asked me "Hey do u need shelter? I could walk you there..." (Or somewhere along that line la...) Of cos, i said no... But i was like, "AHHHH~" How i wish i could. AwwWWwWWww... So sweet. I never even talked to her in school, juz that i keep on noticing her. Hehe... Somehow, she juz attracts my attention, and i couldn't keep my eyes off her for quite some time once she gets into my sight... AwWwWWwwwWww....

Went to slack with yanling somewhere near our area... Damn kecoh despite only the two of us. Haha... Yea she's one of my kakis in NAFA. Pretty close kaki i would say... Seriously damn kecoh.

Came back home, bathed, and start playing NFSU2... Wa finally unlocked my dream car (in real life), Toyota Celica... Sweet baby... Quite powerful stats also... Hehe...

Ok now off to do my model despite the time... Hehe...

Went to the doc's today, and he told me that i got an early stage of tonsilitis (is that how u spell it??). It isn't gonna get worse if i take the med he prescribed me. Phew... No wonder la... My throat's hurting even when i swallow saliva. Argh... Damn pain...

Couldn't resist playing Need For Speed : Underground 2 nowadays. Kept on "zhenging" my car... Looks damn awesome. From a piece of scrap metal, to some awesome shit... Hehe... I'm not a person who's into cars actually, until i played this game. Sheesh... Wonderful shiet man...

These two days have been spent with the members. We've been friends for almost 8 years already. Time really flies... From kids we grow up, each to have our own lives. But no matter what, we're always still together. Haha sounds damn gay la. But oh well...

Ok i gotta start doing my model tomorrow. Or i might juz fail this term. Man... Have to kick that addiction for NFSU2 for awhile... Its hard man.... Really damn hard. Cos its supremely tempting... ooOOoOOoohhhhh bAaaaAaAByyYyYy~

I know that things will change if i open my freaking mouth. I know that things might change much for the better if i opened up. I know that all would be much happier if i did things to make it right. Stubborn as i am, i never did all those above. I know not what fate is, for i control my own fate. A strict atheist i am, some would say. For that, girl, i'm deeply sorry. For hurting you... Please, forgive me...

In this new year, my wish for all, is hoping that this new year's tide would wash away all the pain and scars left in everyone's heart.