The Discipline Of Fire And Demise...

Haha went thru some horoscpoe readings blah blah blah... Found one which is quite true about myself. HAHA! =P I'm a Leo by the way...

LEO - The Coolest one
Nice to everyone they meet. Their Love
is one of a kind. Silly, Fun and
sweet. Have own unique appeal. Most
caring person Ever met! however not
the kind of person you wanna mess
with... u might end up crying...

Inter-Resting.... =)

Ok recently, i'm back into the songs from this ficitonal metal-band "Steel Dragon". Haha they were fictionally formed for the movie "Rock Star", and their music is damn good! Hell yea...

Its been years since i last worked. And today, i took two jobs at one go. It was damn tiring, but fun. Went roving for the Memorex thingy today... Went to Republic Polytechnic for the roving. Twas pretty good, but got a cramp on my left butt cheek. Haha.

After we wrapped it up, i went down to Boon Keng to meet Asri. Cos he was working with me for the flier thing. Not some normal flier, but more of just placing the flier on the car's wiper at carparks. So yea... Was a good-catch up as well. He'll always be my kaki in school. Haha. As usual, crapped alot while working today. Cos of his presence, it was fun. Went to slack for like 15 mins after that, and went home.

I admit, today really took alot outta me. But it was a good experience, and i learnt something about myself. Actually, i'm not that of a introvert in terms of being around a stranger. As in, i realised that i can communicate with strangers in terms of promoting stuffs for work. Another good point was, i don't really stumble that much in terms of verbal conversation. That, i'm happy for myself. From what i remembered, i was a person who really can't communicate with strangers due to the shyness and "introvert" characteristic in me. And yes, i'm a person who doesn't give a damn about strangers or what's going on around me unless its affiliated to me in some way or another. So i guess, my E.Q. has improved. Haha...

This weekend would really be a good one, that i can foresee. Yay!!!

Ok whatever. This is the second and the last time i'm gonna say this. I have confidence in defining what's nice to my ears. Whatever that may be nice to you, might not be the same for me. Vice-versa.

I feel insulted when one "tells me off" for what i wanna listen, and what i love to listen. There was once when my "friend" pointed her finger at my Cradle Of Filth CDs and mocked at them, saying that they're "Filthy Cds". Fuck. I AM sensitive. Call me a hound or whatever. But i believe in protecting the things i love/like. There'll be no one who can mock at what i like or love. I don't give a fuck. Look here. I CHOOSE what i like or love. Not you. Never anyone. Its me, myself and i. I sound self-centered? Oh... Too bad. A reflectance of a mirror?

I'm not pissed. I just need to voice myself out. Look. Even if i can't find that particular song that i want for the rest of my life, i'd not want it from you yourself. No this is not a reverse psychology. Try me. You want an honest opinion? Well, simple. You've insulted what i like, or want to have. Simple as that.

For those who'll anger me further regarding this, i swear upon my own blood, that i'll inject you with misery for as long as you're in contact with me. I know i'm very good in that. Try me. =)

P.S. - One of the songs you have in your playlist, really turned me off for good. That is the last song i'd wanna hear in my life. Its not even a song. Its noise. Don't ever ask me which one, cos i'll leave you with the shame until you figure it out yourself, which you probably wouldn't. Good luck.

Yes like i said, i've always loved a simple life. That is, i do not need to be damn rich, i just want a simple life. I do not need a "Model" girlfriend, i just need a girl who understands, love and accept me for who i am. I do not need friends who can drive me around, i just need friends who can be there for me. Simplicity is what i prefer, as compared to the luxurious livings of a human.

Today was great. She came over to my place shortly after i woke up. Well, she wanted to do her project from work. Claimed that she can't do at home due to the "noise", so she came over. And of course, spend some simple time with me for the whole day. Ain't that sweet? Hehe...

So yea... When it was around 8, we headed out to AMK's S-11 for dinner. The sudden cravings of the "Chicken Cutlet" was there for me. Haha... Its been a long time since i last ate there. Like maybe, 2 years? I love that stall. They do serve really good western food. So yea... Went to place order for food for the both of us. Well, the place has been renovated, and no longer looks run-down. Looks good infact. When the food came, the both of us........ CHIONG AR~~~!

Seriously, the food standard is still there! Omg... After years? Good shit. Or should i say, they've improved. So does the price sadly. But yea, i wouldn't mind paying for good food. Quality over quantity. Ok i think, they've covered both the aspects. Basically, a huge portion of good food. Oh man... One of the best dinners ever. Haha... As we were both munching on our food, we were chatting. Thats the thing i like about being with her. It seems that we have alot of things to share about. To me, she's not only my girlfriend. She's more of... My partner. My lifetime-partner to be exact. I always enjoy her company... =)

Yessa! Her last day of attachment is this saturday. She could wave a fucking good-bye to that company with a fucking fucked up obese piece of lard colleague of hers. Always giving her problems. And yea, common sense tells you that she has no boyfriend. Haha... Of course la... Who'd date a person who has fucked up attitude? What's worse, she's damn obese. Practically, a walking piece of lard... She's as good as totaled. Even if the whole world comes down to only her as a girl, i'm sure normal guys would rather fuck gays than her. *Disgusting*.... Haha!

Oh well... Life's been great for the both of us i'd say. I'm sure we're enjoying every single moments being together and all. Like i said baby, i could never have enough of you... You're just so... Insatiable!

Haha... Thats all... Bye.

Yesterday was plain boring. One of the rare Saturdays that we didn't get to go out. "We" as in, the usual members. Oh well, first of all, cos eugene had his detail. And secondly, i really ran out of ideas of where to go. Haha.

At night, went over to eugene's place to slack after clearing his detail. Only the usual slackers... Himself, Alif and i. Oh well... We were thirsty halfway through slacking, and went to the vending machine to get some drinks. While we were contemplating on what to get for alif, i saw this Halal sign on the "wang-wang" milk drink. HAHAHAHA! And eugene just had the idea of getting that drink and disturb alif. When alif got the drink... His reaction was.... "WA LAOOOOO~~!!!" Haha.... Damn cock la...

Ok today wasn't that bad despite me staying at home for almost the whole day. Woke up in the afternoon. Watched "Alone In The Dark" which i just downloaded a few days ago. That movie is pretty nice. While enjoying the movie, some scenes from that movie kinda looked familiar to me. Looks like some scene which Nightwish used for their MTV for "Wish I Had An Angel". And when the movie is over... They played that song! I was like, "WTF?!". Haha...

Went to meet my angel just now. Haha... Ever so sweet... =)

Last night, i had a dream... One of the weirdest, and one of the most painful one in fact...

I was walking on the streets, and suddenly i was shot at the right side of my torso. I fell in pain, and there was blood flowing down to the ground. I reached out to my wound, and saw a freaking hole into my flesh. Ouch... I ran to the nearby hospital, holding on to my wound to prevent more blood from flowing out. I had cold sweat due to the pain, and almost fainted. Everything i saw, turned into black and white (the near-effect of fainting). Reached the hospital, and sought for help. Fuck.... There was a whole crowd in the hospital, and i had to squeeze my way through. People keep clashing into me, resulting in more and more pain. Managed to withstand the pain, until i saw a doctor who came to my aid. He placed some form of stopper onto my wound, while he went to find first-aid medic kit. He managed to extract the bullet out of my torso, and placed some form of bandage over it. Soon after that, i totally recovered, feeling no more pain at all.

Haha strange dream eh... But rather interesting. The sight of my own wound hadn't left my mind, even until now. Sheesh...

Went to play basketball just now, and had a really good exercise. Had pretty good games today, though abit pissed cos of clement. He used his shoulder and clashed into me, and he was squirming in pain. Like what the fuck right? I should be the one who squirms in pain. He's a fucking diver (meaning those who fakes or exaggerates in "injuries", or even NO injuries at all) sia... Na beh... But due to an accidental movement, managed to give him a tight slap across his face. Haha! And eye for an eye lil' boy...

Anyways, to all Nightwish fans. Good news... They've found a new vocalist! Do check their band members page at http://www.nightwish.com/en/band/members

And for those who are curious about how she sounds like, paste this at your search bar. Its an audio track from their EP. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fShJs8eXrrk (Have to thank Wan Yi for letting me know about this info, and the link for the song). Personally, i feel that Anette sings better than Tarja. She has a softer touch of vocals as compared to Tarja. Which is, what they should sound like. Way to go, Anette...

Sigh... Too bad, there are no plans for tomorrow. I'll be fucking bored la... Who wants to ask me out? Anyone??? =\

Went bowling with ben. But this time round, he didn't bowl. He was just there to improve my skills. Well, its a sad thing. The reason why he didn't bowl was because he got a worn out ligament on his dominant wrist. In which, it got worse a week ago and had to go to sinseh to get it "fixed". Sad thing... But well, with his help, i realised alot of my mistakes. As in, every shot i made, he paid attention to my footwork and release. At the end of the day, i learnt something new with his aid, guide and tips. For the past few weeks, i've been learning many different techniques. What i learnt today, was the best tip. It made my hook travel beautifully across the lane, which is what i've always wanted to get. Just to remind myself always, go really slow. Going slow really allows me to have much much more control, time for adjustments and of course, better aim. Have to really thank him for those tips man. Haha...

Went to meet my girl after that. Went to chill around her estate. Halfway through embracing... Sigh... Gave me a really good shock. It broke my heart to see tears flowing down her cheeks. I didn't know why until she told me. Its about us. Basically about what we've went through recently. Silly girl... Nothing will make me give up on you, for my affections for you was never meant to be diminished. Finally saw her smile after having a good heart-bearing talk with her.

On the way back home, it rained. Again, it reminded me of us... Like what she said "The rain is now a spiritual thing that reminds us of how we first talked to each other..." (or somewhere along that line). Honestly, i personally feel that things are improving for us. No doubt there's still room for improvement and getting to know each other deeply, i'm sure we'll hold onto each other and get through all these together.

With that, my love, I promise you my heart... =)

Went to spend the day with her today which is her off day.

Went to watch shrek 3 with her at PS today. Sheesh... This is the first time that i ever watched Shrek. Damn funny la... Gives me the feeling of another Spongebob. Haha. Another "Siao Hee" ("Crazy movie" in hokkien). The baby pony/dragon is so damn cute la! Haha... Glad that she enjoyed the movie, cos she was laughing like mad in the show. Haha... Her laughters/smiles never fail to brighten up my day... =)

Its been almost half a year since we've been together. Today marks the 5th month of us being together. We've been thru alot, i dare say. The song "Livin' On A Prayer" reminds me of our relationship being together, especially the pre-chorus.

She says "we've got to hold on, to what we've got. It doesn't make a difference if we make it or not. We've got each other, and that's alot for love...". Hehe...

Oh well... Ok there's this guy who never fails to sms me to join his band ever since he got my number. He never fails to sms me every month! Yes, that sounds quite bad eh...

Today he just smsed me, yea same thing again. But was kinda different today, as to what he has to say about me joining his band. The conditions he gave was rather pleasing. He sounds super enthu when i agreed to meet him on this sunday. I hope all goes well.

Its been years since i left the metal scene. I have my reasons of not wanting to come back. But if all goes well for this, i might set foot again into the path i used to walk. =)

For the first time, matt went out with us yesterday. With the usual ones like Alif, Eugene, Redhwan and Dennis, we went to watch Fantastic 4 : Rise Of The Silver Surfer.

Well, the movie's not bad only la... All in all, i'm sure Silver Surfer could do much more than just all those. Haha... He seems pretty weak in that show though. I'd just give like, 3/5 for that show.

Nothing much happened yesterday. Was only till night, that i had a good talk with her. 'Twas all good, and cleared up some things. Shan't go into details, but i could just say that i never once took her for granted.

Oh well... Thats all that there is to yesterday... Haha.

Decided to go bowling at the last minute today.

Today was a good one i'd say, a really good one... Here's a pic of my score...



This score is crazy. I've never gotten this kinda good headstart before. 5 strikes in a row!!! Omg... Haha...



Kinda screwed up at the end... But nevertheless, the score is so far my highest!

I know which technique i should focus on now. That is, my forward. Have to constantly remind myself, "Less ref, more forward". Yea... Thats how i got the strikes for the first 5 throws...

Regarding my illness... I'm fucking sick like a dog now. The illness got worse a few hours ago... Sigh feels so damn terrible... ARGH.

Yea these few days are rather ok... Well, its been almost a week since i last updated. Haha...

Recently, i'm going back into Black Metal. Bands like Naglfar and Behemoth are forging a track to my past, when i was still crazily into Black Metal. Oh yea.. They're damn good. Haha. Behemoth's new album "The Apostasy" is really ass-kicking man... No more melodic as compared to "Demigod", but they input a slight touch of gothic influence. Fuck... Its really damn good. One of the must-have for black/death metal fans out there.

Since two days ago, i've been having symptoms of sore throat. Fucking hell, i guess i'm really down with one. Its damn irritating now la... Argh...

Today was supposed to be a day which i've been anticipating for, a day out to the beach with my angel.

First of all, we decided to meet at her place first, den head to town, and then to the beach. So yea... made my way down to her place. At my place, there was this filipino maid who boarded the same bus as me. When she got a place to sit down, there was this local indian guy in his 40s who was sitting diagonally across her. When he saw the maid, he started talking to her, and i guess, tried to get close to her. When i tot it was just a normal conversation between them, he suddenly moved his ass to sit beside her! Omg.... The maid was pretty much disgusted, and then quickly pressed the bell and alighted the bus. Like WTF rite? Horny bastard...

Met my girl at her place, and made our way down to town to jalan jalan...

After that, we took the train down to harbour front to go to sentosa. And fuck... When we boarded the train at dhoby ghaut, there was this ah ma... Fucking hell. Ok the whole story was... We saw the train approaching, and i made my way to the left side of the door to let the passengers alight at ease. When i was moving aside, i just brushed my hair to the back cos it was just untidy... Den suddenly... This ah ma rushed out of the train and scolded me. Like WTF RITE?! She screamed in hokkien "Hey little brat... I'm 79 years old this year! When you saw me, why were you so cocky and brushed your hair?! You little bastard........" She kept on scolding, and i was totally stunned... My girl just pull me into the train. Wa knn... I was being nice to step aside to let you alight, and you fucking hell scold me?! FOR NO GOOD FUCKING REASON?!?!?!?! Wa cb.... Den spoiled my mood sia. My girl had to just sit beside me and talk me round to calm me down... Sigh...

Reached harbour front. Hehe.... Ok this part ain't bad la... We wanted to try taking the "LRT" to the beach... Pretty exciting. Haha. Never took before ma... The scenery in the train was really good...

Reached the beach, and we just sat down to chill and enjoy the sunset while we took some pics. Hehe. So sweet la... Stayed there till around 8, and we made our way back to vivo for dinner... Dinner was great, food was nice. Thanks to my angel's introduction.

After that, went jalan jalan again in Vivo lor.... Nothing to do, and since my girl wanted to get some stuffs...

Sent her back home, and yea... Shit happened again. For the past fucking few days, my fucking internet connection has fucking problems and keeps on fucking disconnect! ARGH! Pissed off to the max man... Now, all's well... For the moment i guess... Sigh...

Oh well, i'm sure my day would be helluva worse without my girl around... Still, i love her. Everytime i say "I love you", i mean it. It was never taken for granted, and baby, you know it. =)

Ok first off... Thanks to those who bothered to ask me what's wrong in regarding to my previous post. Haha it was nothing guys.... And really thanks to all those who cared. =) And baby, its nothing, i'm fine... Hehe....

Took a pretty "greenish" pic yesterday...



Haha F&N fruitade with two viceroy soldiers guarding it... Two of the dopest green things on earth!!! (I'm sure eugene would agree to that.... HAHA).

Well, was a pretty last min thing that i thought of going to suntec for the IT fair. My girl told me last night, and i was pretty excited... The initial plan for alif, eugene and i, was to play basketball though it wasn't confirmed. But managed to persuade them to go to the IT fair. So we went...

On our way there, saw one of our homies... Dennis... Holding a "familiar" paper bag, he was with his girl. HAHA TIO LA!!! Second time kena lia by me sia.. Haha... (tio lia = "kena caught" in hokkien).

Ok headed to the IT fair... Woah i swear, that place was filled with a hell lot of people man. Our movement speed was like, 0.5kmph. Fuck man...

Walk walk walk, den something caught my eyes... A display saying "Micro-SD card 1GB for $13". OMG!!! Went to check it out, and it was bloody true. Was a very good deal as they actually sell it for like around 50 bucks at other places. So alif and i bought it... Wa shiok man...

And then, we went to hunt for eugene's PSP memory stick... Walk walk walk, finally saw this booth, with a display saying "Memory stick 4GB for$64". Went to check it out, and woo! As true as the display says... So he got wat he wanted too...

I was kinda disappointed, cos can't find my DVD burner and reader drive. But nvm, got a hell of a good deal from that micro SD card. Haha!

By the time when we were done "shopping", it was like,8+pm... We were practically starving... Headed to marina square, and went to "Secret Recipe". Sat down, and placed our orders... Here are the pics...



This meal is fucking sinful, we swear... I ordered Chicken lasagne and chocolate ice blended, eugene ordered fish and chips and chocolate ice blended, and alif ordered beef lasagne and chocolate ice blended!!! When the food came... CHIONG AR!!!!!!!!!

Soon after that, became like this....



Chiong finish, just that i didn't really like that piece of bread that they gave... And i just left it in the bowl. Haha...

We were thinking of having some dessert... And POOM!!!...



Here we are... I got myself Chocolate cheesecake, alif got strawberry cheesecake, and eugene got some big serving of ice-cream. I swear, if eating is ever a sin, we would enter the deepest depths of hell... HAHAHAHAHA~

Hardcore man... Its been a long time since i spent so much on food, but i would say that today was really worth it. I dare say we all enjoyed ourselves... Power...

Today was really great man... If one more person would be around, it'll be totally heavenly for me... Too bad, that person was working, and yea... After that, went to "surprise" her by dropping by her work place. Haha. That smile on her face when she saw me, really melted my heart... She's none other than my girl... AwwwWWwwWW~~~ I love you babe... =)

Anyways, i would like to dedicate this song to my beloved girl... Its called "Sabbra Cadabra" by Ozzy Osbourne. Metallica did a damn good cover of it too... Well, shan't post the lyrics here, cos its kinda... Oh well... Haha.

See ya!!!