The Discipline Of Fire And Demise...

Many a times, one would unknowingly take things for granted.

And yes, i admit, now i'm in the wrong. I don't know if the fault lies in me taking her for granted. Maybe its another term for my mistake. I am indeed feeling remorseful. More than just words can say. I should really learn to control my temper and not let it get the better of me. I deserve more than just a tight slap. I'm not saying all these just to make myself feel less remorseful, but more of, i wanna remind myself not to do it ever again. I am really all to blame...

Sweet memories flashed through my head, and it gave me a fucking big wake-up call. For a moment, i don't understand why i did all those. Sigh... For the better of us, i swear to change. In terms of being able to control my temper, especially in a relationship. Cos i believe, the more you love a person, the easier it is for you to hate her. Thats just my own logic.

Being repentant is my main goal for now. What she said, really struck me hard... "Just let things flow naturally ok?". Like i said, i've got millions of dreams to fulfill with you. So let us just embark on our journey together and sail through every disaster that strikes upon us... Bon voyage for us.... =)

'-\<{([REPENT])}>-/'

Guy and girl studies in the same school, under the same department but different course. Guy notices girl in school, and soon became his eye candy.

For a few good months, guy keeps on taking glances at girl whenever they're in the combined class for the same subject. Guy can't keep girl outta his sight whenever he sees her. But at times, when girl turns to look at him, he'll turn away and pretends to be doing his own things...

It was the 3rd term, the assessment week. Just nice, it was the raining season. It rained everyday, for a whole long period. One night, guy decides to rush his work in the computer lab for his upcoming assessments. Guy spots girl in the same com lab. And from his seat, he could see girl concentrating on her work. At some intervals, guy would peek glances at girl. Always on his mind, "how i wish i could get to know her... How i wish i'm not that shy...".

It was around 10pm on that night, when guy decides to leave school for home. When he came down, it was pouring heavily. So he called his gramps to come pick him up. Gramps agreed and told him to wait at his school area. So he waited at the foyer where his gramps would usually drop him off when gramps sends him to school. He was leaning against the wall at foyer, when he saw girl leaving too. He saw her walking towards his direction, answering a call on her handphone. His heart beat faster as she walks closer to him. Guy was pretty much nervous at that time. After she hung up the phone, she walked even closer to guy, and kept eye contact with guy. Guy's heart beat even much faster, but pretended not to be looking in her direction.

Girl approached guy with an umbrella in her hand, and asked guy... "Hey do you need a shelter down to that bus stop?". Guy reluctantly answered "Erm... Its ok. I'm waiting for a pick-up..." Guy feels damn "squeeze ball" when he said that, but it was a fact. Then girl said "Hm ok then... See ya around..." When girl turned and walked away from guy, guy feels even more "squeeze ball". Guy was thinking to himself "AH~~~ WHY THE FUCK DID I CALL MY GRAMPS?!?!?!". But oh well, wat's done is done... Guy regretted calling his gramps...

One week later, there was a seminar which involves the whole department to participate in. So guy was hoping to see girl in that seminar. When he attended it, guy was surprised... Girl was inside the hall!!!

On the first day of the seminar, guy kept on looking at girl. Guy wanted to at least, thank her for the offer of walking him to the bus-stop that night. Guy didn't know how to approach her, but wanted to do so badly. Guy was too shy to just approach her face to face. Guy felt very useless...
Suddenly, guy saw that girl was away from her friends in the seminar room. So guy quickly took out a piece of paper and a pen, and scribbled a message to her. Basically thanking her and asking for her contact. After scribbling, guy folded that paper and quickly approached girl. Guy tapped on girl's shoulder and passed her that note. After that, he quickly ran out of the seminar room and headed to the toilet, with his heart beating so crazily like never before. In that piece of paper, guy jot down his number and told her that if she doesn't mind, she could sms or call him. So guy kept on looking at his phone every 5 mins....

Seminar ended, and the day was over. Even that time, there was still no avail of girl contacting him. He was so sad. He thought "Sigh... Forget it then...". He went home, feeling quite down and sad.

It was around 7pm, when his phone recieved an sms. The number wasn't at all familiar. But when he read the sms, he was shocked... It was girl!!! "WOOOOOOOO HOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!". Guy jumped for joy while playing his PS2. They started smsing, and soon, guy found out that girl was attached. Once again, he was sad. But something gave him hope. Girl said that her current relationship was too "vague". So in a way, guy didn't feel that it was hopeless at all.

Days went by. On this very night, girl smsed guy, saying that girl broke up with her boyfriend. Guy was damn bloody fucking helluva shocked. He felt both emotions at the same time. Both happiness and sadness. So guy decided to meet her for the very first time, just one on one.

It was around 12.30am when guy met girl at bishan. From a distance, guy already spotted girl sitting at the designated area which they're supposed to meet. Guy's heart beat even faster than some double-paddle (drummers would know what i mean). They sat down at started talking, while guy feels so damn shy.

Finally, they decided to go to esplanade. They took NR7, and alighted at Orchard Tangs. They walked all the way down to esplanade from there. They started talking, and got to know each other more. Whenever they sat near each other, guy would slightly turn in another direction due to shyness.

They spent the whole night there at esplanade, until 7am. Just chatting and laughing mind you. Not some funny dirty shit. Please! If you wanna read, DON'T THINK DIRTY!!! Okok back to the story... So yea... Guy sees her home as there was a straight bus to her place from there. In the bus journey, guy notices that girl is feeling very tired, and fell asleep for a few times. Guy was thinking.... "I wouldn't mind lending you my shoulders to lean on and sleep if you asked..." But TOO BAD!!! Girl didn't say anything about it. So again, guy feels abit "squeeze ball". Guy accompanied her to her house's bus stop, and took a cab back home.

On consecutive days, guy and girl kept on going out together. And mind you, just the two of them. Even at night, guy would meet girl at the park near her house to just accompany her and chat. After some time, guy falls in love with girl... But he kept quiet about it.........

About a week later, guy finally admitted to her about his feelings... And to his surprise, girl also feels the same way. On the surface, guy pretended to act kool. But deep in............... "YEEEEEEEEAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!". Haha ok la... Not so hardcore to shout for that long la... But it was just a thought....

So finally, guy asked for the girl's hand, and promises girl happiness. Girl agreed... And they lived happily ever after...

That, is the story of us....



Wa fuck, i spent like, 45 mins typing this post!!! Haha.... Ok la... That REALLY is the story of us... =)

Ok i juz got my results slip thru mail... Fucked up. I hate stupid subjects like Research studies... FUCK!!! Here goes...

3D Studio (Sculpture) 1 : B
3D Studio (Sculpture) 2 : A
Environmental Design Studio 1 : B
Environmental Design Studio 2 : B
Basic Horticulture : A
Communication 1 : C
Communication 2 : C
Technology 1 : C
Technology 2 : C
Theory & History 1 : D
Theory & History 2 : D
Media Studies : B
Landscape Studies 1 : D
Research Studies : F (F for Fail... FUCK!!!)

GPA : 2.35

Ok come to think of it, results aint that bad cos of the average GPA. BUT I HATE RESEARCH STUDIES!!! ARGH~~~!

Yea the past week has been pretty ok. Re-kindling some old flames of hobbies that i used to enjoy. To name, bowling. Its been like, one freaking year since i touched that. Haha. Went to bowl with my bowling kakis and yea... It was damn good. Still contemplating whether i should get my own set though.

Angel Dust... One of the legendary bands that i ever will worship. I have to say, they're really damn good. Ben asked me to download things using torrent. The last time i used it, was pretty much a nightmare. Now, its helluva better la... Downloaded the whole of Angel Dust discography. Haha. Thanks to ben.... And i noticed one thing. Angel Dust loves covering Rainbow (Richie Blackmore)'s songs... And they do very well in that sense. Fucking good!

Speaking of Angels... I miss my own personal angel... (My missy). Haha. Lets see... Its been like, 5 days since i last saw her? I'm dying man... But gonna see her again tonight. Haha...

Ok la... Got nothing much to talk about already la... I NEED MONEY!!!!

Went to watch Shooter with them yesterday. Its really a good show, worth the cash and time. Maybe i really love it cos i'm in to sniping... Haha.... But yea, i'm more attracted to the story line... Really got me into it man... Talks basically about the corruption and politics.

Went to slack at CP after that, and headed back home....

Sigh... Her work is killing her sia... I hope for it to end soon... Fucking attachment... Stupid collegues...

Woah its been like, a week since i last blogged. Haha... Didn't have the mood to. Or rather, was feeling kinda lazy to blog.

Had a pretty fun week though. Went to watch movie with her, played lan games with them blah blah blah...

My tattoo's almost recovered! 95% scabbed off and yea... Looks damn good la... Love it... Haha.

Recently hooked onto this MMORPG called "Last Chaos". Anyone care to join me? Haha.. Its a USA game, but aint' lagging man. Surprised...

Also hooked back into Metallica's old album, "...And Justice For All". That album to me, is the best Metallica album of all times. The fiercest, the fastest, and the best solos of all Metallica's albums. I love the whole album. Haha...

Ok la... Nothing much to blog. See ya...

Yea went to touch up on my tattoo which looked pretty shitty. And yea, super satisfied with the touching-up. Well done i would say. Love it, and worth the amount i paid.

From this....



To this...........









SWEEEEEEEEETTTTTTT....... Love it man.... Haha.

And anyways, i miss you m'lady... =\

These few days are ok i guess....

Went to her bro's performance yesterday at NAFA theatre at the SPA building. A few of the pianists really impressed me... Sheesh.



Took this pic a few days ago... Looks like my dog kena shock sia. HAHAHA damn cute la! Awkward and funny pose...



And yea, i took this juz now... I like this pic.

Today's the first day of her attachment. Hm well, do take good care of yourself ok? I know that work's tiring.